I started this blog as, frankly, a cheap form of therapy - a way of expressing what I felt but didn't dare say out loud, and a way to connect with women who would understand that. I am not the same woman that I was in September of 2005, and it is hard to maintain this blog now, for several reasons.

First of all, I am not an infertility patient any longer. More importantly, I have found that, in trying to remain strictly anonymous, I mostly just feel like a big liar. I never answered the email that I got, in part because I worried that, in trying to balance the line between being honest and the safety of being anonymous, I would start to create a 'character', and I don't want to end up playing a character. Also, I am the crappiest liar, ever. 40 seconds into one and I am either laughing or can't make eye contact. You should play poker with me some time!

At the same time, I love the community of it all...and everyone who ever read, or commented, you have no idea how large a role you all played in me getting from deep sadness to today's hopeful optimism.

I am not going away. But I am going elesewhere, and I hope you will join me as I start over, from a happier place.

Please join me atThe Longest Wait, my new digital home.